Wow, a month today I finished up my short-term contract at that icky school. Ick.
Of course this means that I haven’t worked, yet again, in A MONTH. Of course, if I knew when this would end, it wouldn’t be so difficult. But of course I don’t. I subbed for 4 hours at UBC last week which is nice but it doesn’t pay the bills at all. I’m on some other sub lists as well but no bites.
I’ve applied for some jobs – no bites.
Of course, it is a difficult time of year – winter and ESL teaching don’t always go together. Sigh. And as I say, I have had to in earnest start living off of my savings – and wow they go so fast. I imagine one day soonish I’ll have no savings and no job. Yikes.
Vancouver is a difficult town. I might have a couple of months of work at UBC starting in Feb. – 8 weeks of work to be exact – but that is short term. I can only work in the short term programs up there and they don’t always need ‘outside’ people and short programs only run Feb.-March and July-August. So even if they needed me for all of them, it is only less than 4 months of work! The longer programs – Intensive English Program (IEP), that is the ‘meat’ of it all. They don’t need me and when they need folks, the go with the already mastered. Sigh.
I realize I’ve written most of this before, I’m just trying to work it all out I guess in my own brain. Am I wasting my time trying to (slowly) do a Masters? I don’t know. Aaargh Vancouver and its expensive housing, food, etc and its competition for every tiny job. And yet, I love Vancouver and don’t really want to leave!
Yeah, so way too much tiime laying about, alone. I mean I study for my course (must try and start the essay soon even though I don’t thoroughly understand the topic!), try to exercise (today, a bike ride to the pool then a swim I think), go to my writers’ group, go to mindfulness meditation, etc but still, it’s generally me with me and me and me. Uh, sigh.
On a positive note, it is sunny again today so that’s very nice and helpful. Really it is – way better than the grey skies!
Depressing post, over and out.