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Downtown shrove Tuesday and gee

13 Feb

So. Working a two hour shift – that is right 120 minutes – is not illegal apparently in the ‘education world’ as one might, on a randomly strange day, call the downtown school.

Then I’m not working until Thursday evening in the fourth of eight classes at L. College.

That’s right, things are still silly and difficult in the work world.

My brain is not on – had some insomnia then some weird nightmares where I moved to Mexico and had a breakdown and the late actress Esther Rolle was there to offer support.

You can’t make these things up. Well, I guess you can but why.

Oh, right, New York, I was going to write about that.

Let’s see.

Nope, I have nothing at the moment. A return trip for me this year  seems more unlikely since i’m never working and also now have the Samsung 8. A lovely phone and a lovely improvement from my 2.5 year old Samsung Grand Prime that no longer held a charge for very long, had no space, and the charger thing was wonky and I kept having to buy new charger cords.  I got a good deal from Fido (local carrier, owned by Rogers) and now have 10 gigs of data which I in no way need that much but it was part of the good-ish deal.

So there we go.

Lots of space on the phone and I have been enjoying adding apps and games.

The phone was $110 (tax in) plus the 2 year plan obviously – if i break the phone – that will be $1,000 please and thank you.

I hope I can enjoy it for a few minutes before the breakage.  No more cell phone while taking a bath!

Have I mentioned that I need a job?  I can probably fake my way through a spring/summer with a bit of work here and there but come September I am oy oy oy.

Oy.

and finally, oy.

Let us get our minds off of all this, shall we?

I think I ‘d like to go back to NYC but not necessarily the whole flight madness and weird Air BnB weirdness (double weird).  The thing is (here is the thing) NYC is so expensive that it would be hard to find a cheaper place to stay unless I found another Air BnB but better the devil you know, you know?

I don’t think I can eat pancakes for dinner, so ixnay on that Shrove Tuesday free deal.

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Some more

8 Feb

I am hearing an entire phone conversation under my window (well, one half of it).

“Cindy!  How are you?  I’m in Vancoooover and I’m just finishing up my walk with my dog Alfie.  So when’s your last day?  Yeah, yeah.”

I’m assuming she doesn’t mean her last day of life.  “So when is your last day of life?”  Yeah, oh yeah.”

That would be kind of weird.

I wonder what city the caller is in and does she think Vancouver is pronounced Vancooooover.  Cindy, where are you and how do you pronounce Vancouver?

I am bored.  Yup.  The winter is endless this year in Vancooooover.  Rain rain rain rain rain.  There is talk of a sunny day coming up.  Glory be.

Glory be.

Oh, wee wee very wee fan base here at jobsearchinginvancouver.blogspot.com – I am still job searching!  Isn’t that crazy!  Well, I’m currently clinging to two hours a day for a few days at the downtown school and a bit at L. College.  It is craziness all around.  Tedious as heck.

I’ve applied at a few random places – BC Ferries to be a ticket taker! But have heard nothing of course.

So much tedious.

One can only watch so

Much

Netflix.

My birthday is coming up and I will officially be in my early to almost mid-50s goodness gracious.

Good lord.

What the heck.

I am trying to think what else to write about New York City.  Well, I recently read an excellent book on gentrification there – “The Creative Destruction of New York City: Engineering the city for the elite.”  Academic, well-researched.  Having read that, reading “Vanishing New York: How a Great City Lost its soul,’ is disappointing and I’m glad I got it from the library and didn’t buy it.  The writer writes with passion which is good but he is short on facts and the facts he does have he seems to have cut and pasted.  He has a blog as well by the same name.  It is hard to go from a very well-written book to a much less well-written one, tis true.

The tedious time totally terrorizes me.

That’s dramatic but lots of nice ‘t’ sounds.

I don’t know how to change my life or take advantage of the time so I, I.

Well, at least I am blogging again I guess.

I have a “swipe again,” postcard I got in New York.  Oh who cares.  Sorry, that is the tedious in me.  It refers to the Metrocard and how often when swiping to get to the subway, it says Swipe Again.  And you’ve got a line up behind you.  It’s a bit of a crazy thing.  I read that New York City is finally going to be set up for Smartphone use so I guess you can get through with that.

I also have a postcard of a young Elvis’s face and neck, shoulders.

I have been working Saturday mornings at L. College (will be 8 Saturdays in all. I’m replacing another teacher who had to take last session and this session off.)  A good little gig it is.  Anyway, this weekend the college is closed for Family day weekend so I signed up for an “Invisible Disabilities’ workshop at a downtown church.  Should be very interesting and informative.  I am looking forward to it.  I am pleased that it fell on a Saturday that I could actually make it. (R. if you are reading this I can still make it to book club.  Everything at once.  Won’t be tedious at least!).

Have you seen Vancouver winter skies?  So many clouds it is just one giant dark cloud of darkness. Sigh.

Oh yes, I took a couple of great tours in NYC. Run by Free Tours on Foot, they are free but of course you tip after which I did and generously – great tours.  I did one of Greenwich Village and one in Harlem.  The guides are generally older folks, probably retired and making a bit of extra money.  A good gig – they may work three or four days a week and the tours are about two hours.  The more people, the more tips of course.  I think it is a great idea.  The Greenwich Village guide was super knowledgeable and had a ton of interesting information to share, three quarters of which I forget oh well.  The Harlem tour – it was freezing cold that day and I almost didn’t go but I did, I did.  Also very interesting. The Harlem tour started at the Schomburg Center for Research in Black Culture, which is part of the New York City library system.  I was early (surprising) so went inside and looked around at a little gallery and a great bookstore/gift shop.  Everywhere in NYC the gift shops/bookstores were awesome I found, especially the New York Public Library’s on 42nd Street.

What else, what else.

No, really, what else.

Nope, that’s it.

 

Housing Works works

6 Feb

What I had been looking most forward to in New York City was going to Housing Works Bookstore and Cafe in Soho on Saturday, December 16th (2017).  It was the day of the annual ‘A Christmas Carol’ marathon where for 4.5 hours or so, various authors and actors would read from Dickens’ book.  Prior to it there was to be a Christmas carol concert by the New York City Master Chorale.

The event took place on my eighth day in the city and I was tired but exhilarated in many ways.  Travel for me means nightly insomnia no matter how relaxed I tell myself to be.  And travel is tiring in its way – the coming, the going, the ins and outs.  The subway.  The this, the that.

I Google mapped my way on the subway – and actually found that the bookstore was within easy walking distance of the second line I had to take. Hallelujah!  Well, I did walk the wrong way initially but I eventually made it.  I arrived about a half an hour before the carolling was to start.

Holy Hallelujah

The bookstore, part of Housing Works that was established in 1990 to help those with HIV and AIDS to have housing, was beautiful.  Lots of wood, an upper level balcony, a cafe at the back, and tremendously helpful staff at the front (all volunteers).  The selection of books was terrific and inspiring.  My intellectual thirst, for lack of a less pretentious way of saying it, was firing on all cylinders.  Yee haw!

There were seats set up for the event and I, after checking out the books on the balcony, saved a seat for myself.  I got some healthy goodness from the cafe and settled in.

The crowds were starting to gather.

At 11 am, the New York City Chorale began to sing.  It was glorious.  A free concert that would cost a lot I imagine under normal circumstances.  It was a small segment of the Chorale, I believe and they were giving their time to sing – and have folks sing along as they liked.

For an hour, they sang.  They took requests and had people from the crowd come up and sing with them.

Holy cow holy cow holy cow holy cow.

There are places like this that are non-profit and that care for others and have volunteers and have marathons and professional choirs sing carols and I was verklempt.

I stayed for part of the Dickens Marathon after and that was also amazing.  The actors/artists/writers read from the two balconies and the audience was entranced.

I don’t know that I am a good enough writer to do this event the justice that it deserves.  This was a highlight of my 10 days in the city.

It is something to travel alone in a city and have to figure out what you have to figure out on your own – not that NYC is the jungle (well, an urban one to be sure) but still, it is a thing. It is a thing for me anyway.  And there I was sitting in Housing Works and just feeling tremendous about it all.

Then I broke my leg.

No, ha, I joke.  No such drama.  Well, the only drama was that I then went in search of the Chelsea Market which was a crowded misery of the opposite of Housing Works I thought.

I stumbled back up to the Air BnB and waited for the evening when I would be going to the Apollo Theater to listen to some Christmas music. I don’t think I will write about the Apollo because that just feels too much like ‘white tourist has incredible Harlem experience and writes about it in her blog.’

New York City bookstores

6 Feb
A big part of my focus on my wee 10 day trip in New York City was to break my front tooth on a chain store bagel. I accomplished that almost immediately! Bravo. It was a cinnamon raisin bagel slathered in awesome amounts of cream cheese at a DD (full name withheld to protect the chain name) very near where I was staying. I knew that if I didn’t eat at the Air BnB, then I was less likely to be called out for crumbs on the floor (see previous note for more on that). The bagel was chewy (‘Well, of course, a chain store bagel,” noted Air BnB hostess when I told her. I hung my head.) and then suddenly, it was also crunchy. Crunchy-chewy. Chewy-crunchy. Crewy? Chunchy? Forgive me, I have had insomnia and had to work a two hour (yup) shift early this morning. This is tough on an older gal.
Where was I? Oh yes, so then it was crunchy and I thought hmmm. Then I ran my tongue over my two front teeth, both of which had cheap veneers to make up for their extreme chipped-ness because no mouth guard for years and an ice chewing obsession. Sure enough, one tooth was back to its old self. Gack! So there I was on the subway taking selfies of my front teeth so I could see what the heck. Later, when I called the dental receptionist back in Vancouver, she suggested that I don’t eat on my front teeth at all over the next week until I could see the dentist.
My other focus was bookstores. Vancouver used to have bookstores other than the big chain one, but now it really doesn’t. It has about two independent bookstores and a few used bookshops but nothing that makes me go wow wow wow. I went to six bookstores in NYC and here is the list – might be of interest if you ever plan to visit or just like reading about bookstores. I love reading about bookstores.
1. Strand Bookstore – main store – 828 Broadway – I know I shouldn’t have been but I was disappointed. I’d been to Strand in 2005 and was so excited about going back. Strand is a mix of new and used books and it is huge. It also has some neato non-book items. Part of my disappointment might have had to do with the fact that I went on my first full day when I was still jetlagged. Dale, Luc, and I (see previous post to see who these fellows are) went together and while they found a lot to buy, I didn’t find anything. Not sure why – perhaps if I had spent more time in the used section, I might have found more. We also went on a weekend day so, yeah. I didn’t find their selection of new books that interesting. I wouldn’t worry about Strand though, it is super popular. It shall carry on without me I am happy to say.
2. Sisters Uptown Bookstore – “The only black-owned bookstore in Manhattan” 1942 Amsterdam Avenue. I googled bookstores as one does and found out that this was a short-ish walk from where I was staying. I got lost but a nice gentleman showed me the way. New Yorkers aren’t assholes and in fact are nice to tourists. He showed me to the door of this small bookstore and cultural center and awesome levels of awesomeness abounded. The employees were super friendly, the art on sale amazing, and a great selection of books. Very cozy and lovely and thank god it exists.
3. Book Culture – 4 locations. I was at the 2915 Broadway store and the one near Columbia University, 536 W. 112th Avenue. I didn’t even know this store existed but found it as I was heading back to the subway from a visit to a Barnes & Noble location. A lovely layout in both stores, some nice non-book stuff and a great selection of academic and non-academic books. The second floor of the Columbia University location has a lot of excellent used books. The Columbia store is much more focussed on academic books.
4. Bluestockings – 172 Allen Street, East Village. I happened upon this bookstore on my way to the Tenement Museum. It is a pretty hardcore feminist bookstore and there were some interesting titles.
5. Barnes & Noble – 555 5th Avenue and 2285 Broadway – say what you will about chain bookstores and I’ve never found Barnes & Noble in Bellingham to have anything of interest. But the 5th Avenue store in particular was excellent – and the staff super knowledgeable and helpful. Lots of cool New York City stuff too. A great magazine selection, particularly literary magazines.
6. Housing Works – 126 Crosby Street. This used bookstore was so amazing that it is going to get its own note at another time.
I had also wanted to go to Greenpoint Books in Brooklyn but I never made it to Brooklyn.
I ended up buying a good number of books and a few magazines. And the thing is, there are many, many more bookstores to be discovered when I go back to the Big Apple.
I’ll write about Housing Works Bookshop and Cafe in the next installment. It was an oasis. It was incredible and great Christmas carols!!

New York City Musings, part one

6 Feb
Nobody talked much in New York City’s 9/11 Memorial Museum. Why I was there I’m still not sure. I was almost a week into my ten day tourist trip, one funded by an inheritance from my recently deceased father. I’d been to New York City years ago in early summer. It had been holy hot as hell. I was still staying in hostels in 2005, somehow able to sleep in a room with a dozen other people.
Now I was over 50 and staying in my first Air BnB , located in Harlem, very close to the 155th Street Station. The apartment building was a typical New York one for the area– small, old with a kind of scary elevator ( although that there was an elevator at all was quite the perk), and steam heat so hot that many New Yorkers kept their windows open even in the bowels of winter I had read.
I was there in early to mid-December, before the bomb cyclone winter weather hit. It sometimes snowed during my stay and the streets were pretty gloppy but almost instantly salted, although I did hear a woman say that she’d nearly fallen six times in two blocks. Uh yes. Outside I walked stealthily as I had learned to do growing up in Winnipeg – kind of like a penguin. This was familiar.
All else was not. I was travelling alone as I usually do – my friends were either too broke or had families to vacation with. I’d always travelled on my own, something that had been good and bad. The good was that in 2003, I’d met Dale at a hostel in London. Fifteen years later and by pure coincidence, he and his husband were in New York City on a business trip. His last day in the city was my second day so we met up for lunch and gleefully browsed at Strand Bookstore in the East Village. He then ran me around the city – there were chocolates to buy at some shop I don’t remember the name of and a pet store to visit so he could get their dogs NYPD vests (which turned out didn’t fit but their neighbour’s dogs are enjoying them). We climbed up and down more subway stairs than can be counted and by the time we hit Times Square I ran away from them.
“But how will you know where the subway is?” Dale called after me as his husband looked for a cheap backpack in one of the zillion luggage shops in the square.
“I’ll find it,” I shouted back. Okay, it took me 30 minutes, a Google map, and asking four different groups of people for directions before I stumbled onto the C Line.
Well, you don’t so much stumble as wander aimlessly and march up and down stairs and more stairs into the bowels of the city. Under the city.
“The subway is more challenging these days,” a building mate in Vancouver had told me. She had lived in New York for 10 years and still had many friends there.
“Oh,” I’d thought at the time, no problem. The subway hadn’t been an issue back in that hot summer of 2005.
Turned out the subway was more challenging this time. You didn’t know if your line was running and if it was, when it might be coming. And if it came, it might sit at the station for five minutes or an hour. And when it moved, it often stopped dead. The train conductor mumbled. A lot. Something like ‘Bzzbzz bzzz thanks for your patience,’ was often heard. I decided to take my cue from New Yorkers crammed in the subway car with me – they generally looked resigned and no one even sighed with impatience. Apparently a fairly common reason for subway delays was a sick passenger somewhere along the line. Union rules stated that subway employees couldn’t take a sick passenger out of a car but had to wait for EMT’s. I could understand for sick passengers when I was standing, jammed in between other straphangers. Winter coated, it was a sweaty time. Don’t faint, don’t faint, don’t faint, I told myself. Such a strategy had never worked but oddly enough it did in New York. I had travel insurance but I couldn’t imagine having to use it and holding up a whole subway line because I had passed out. The reverberations of a sick passenger went on seemingly forever – backing up other lines unto infinity. I also hadn’t figured out how to get crosstown – from east to west – on a subway, especially uptown. One afternoon after a visit to The Met Museum, I got on an M6 bus I think it was. It apparently went uptown to the cloisters which in my mind meant it would go near 155th Street. As we crawled along the streets that didn’t look close to anything I recognized, I stumbled over to the driver.
“Oh, no no,” he said. “Get off here and wait for the M3.” The M3 sidled by 40 minutes later while I was trying to figure out where I was so I could pin it for an Uber driver. “What street is this?” I’d asked a thundering group of middle-schoolers. There were no street signs anywhere nearby. “Don’t know,” one of them mumbled. “No idea?” I said. “No one knows the name of this street?” A nameless street. Ah! The M3. It was busy, busy. Mainly parents taking their kids home from school.
“What part of my saying do not open up your juice box on the bus did you not understand?” asked a father to his little girl. “What part was confusing to you?”
A somewhat confused man sat beside me to the amusement of some grade school boys behind me.
“There’s no, there’s no, there’s no, there’s no,” he kept repeating . “There’s no, there’s no, there’s no-“
“Justice?” I finally asked him. He looked at me.
“Fifty, fifty, fifty is a big age. Big age big age.”
“Yup,” I said.
I turned to the boys – “Does this bus stop at St. Nicholas and 145th?” Fancy the street name at Christmas time. You can’t make this shit up.
“Yup, three more stops,” said one of the boys.
Three stops later, thank you boys, I walked 10 blocks and then took the ancient elevator six floors up to the Air BnB. Alicia, the hostess, Air BnBed two rooms in her rental apartment and she and a roommate lived in the other two. There was no common space, other than a tiny kitchen and equally small bathroom.
I unlocked the door and felt no small relief at being out of the constant noise, crowds, and subways to nowhere. “Were you thinking New York City wouldn’t be busy?” A friend asked me upon my return. “I did, I did,” I said. “But I didn’t. I’d forgotten.” Part of me loved the busyness but anxious me often needed a bit of a break.
Alicia was just going out. She was 28 years old, cute and hip. She hadn’t been in to making conversation, something extroverted me was coming to slowly accept.
“Oh, Karen, hey is that your loaf of bread in the kitchen?”
“Uh, yes,” I said.
“Well, there are crumbs on the floor.”
“Oh.”
“Yeah.”
“Oh.”
“So the broom,” she laughed. She’d laughed the other evening too when she told me that the pan I’d cleaned wasn’t clean enough. Nervous laughter.
“Got it,” I said, chastened. I knew that both Air BnB hosts and guests wrote reviews of each other after a stay had ended. I’d checked out a few of hers and she was big on guests leaving things spotless. So much for the cleaning fee I’d had to pay, I thought.
I rarely used the kitchen, mainly to eat the offending loaf of bread and boil eggs and one time, I’d made macaroni and cheese, hence the great unwashed pan issue. Pangate. Potgate. But I mean really, who makes macaroni and cheese whilst in New York City. I do, I do.
Alicia’s other issue was the door not being double locked when people left the apartment. I had made this mistake only once. One day, I noted that it hadn’t been done by another guest so I texted her. Not realizing it was me, she texted back that she would tell the ‘older lady guest’ to be more careful.
“Um,” I’d texted in response, “This is the older lady guest! “
“Oh god”, she texted back. “So sorry!”
I laughed my butt off on the subway until I got to the stop near the 9/11 Memorial Museum. I was exhilarated from a day of bookstore shopping and Christmas marketing but also exhausted. I figured I had one museum left in me for the day. On my first visit to New York in 2005, there’d still been a great hole where the Twin Towers had stood. Now there was a $700 million memorial museum that after endless delays had opened in 2014. It was controversial, and I’d read that some families of 9/11 victims were unimpressed with what they felt would become a money-making tourist attracting monstrosity.
Not sure why I chose to go there but there I was. The entrance fee was $24. The museum was a huge open space. And blissfully .which is surely the wrong word to use here, it was mostly silent. It was pretty much as I’d expected, even though I hadn’t read much about it at that point. There were bicycles and bicycle racks covered in soot from the day (no one had ever claimed the bikes), there were parts of machinery horribly twisted. There was a New York City firefighter by some of the wreckage, giving tours.
There was a room filled with photos of the murdered – those in the towers and those in the planes. You could click on each picture to find out more information about the victims. There were voice recordings of frantic calls to 911. There were pictures of the missing posters – so many of them – that relatives had put up in their desperation to find their loved ones. It was haunting of course as it was meant to be.
I was dizzy after leaving the room – mainly from insomniaed exhaustion and hunger. I wish I could say I was more touched by what I’d seen – and it was horrifying of course of course. But . . . I had seen it so many times before everywhere.
I left after noting the recorders where people could leave their own memories of 911 and on my way back to the subway noted that the Jewish Museum was also close by. It would have been better, I thought, for me to have gone there.

downtown school life

21 Nov

I worked for a great downtown ESL school for years – about seven.  Then it shut.  Long story really.

Now I ‘work’ for another.

Work in scare quotes.

Not because it’s scary, ha.

Although really.

Really.

Really.

An hour here. An hour there. Often two hours separated by hours, like today. An hour in the morning and an hour in the late afternoon.

The downtown school hires lots of other ‘teachers’ (scare quotes again!  Actually Entertainers!) who get way more work than I do even though I’ve been there for coming on a long time now.

Because I couldn’t get 4..8/5 regularly on student evaluations.

The students are 19 years old and the school is always training them to give high evaluations.

It’s all weird and hard to explain.

Here’s the thing – this downtown school is the ‘best’ of the bunch.  The rest pay much worse.

Meh – late fall/winter is always like this for me work wise – really slow and demoralizing.

The downtown school normalizes really rather horrible treatment of employees.

The beat goes on.

I’m going to New York City in a few weeks for 10 days.

Slightly gaga

2 Oct

Was never a fan of Lady Gaga.  Not so much that I wasn’t a fan maybe but more I thought not for me and is there actually talent to go with the meat dress.

Turns out so.

Her Netflix special has been rather panned by critics but I enjoyed it.  Her song, Joanne, from her album of the same title, is very powerful I think. Poignant.  Brilliantly sung in my Neil Diamond loving opinion.

If’ you’ve ever lost someone, listen to Joanne.  Joanne, Gaga’s middle name, was her aunt who died at 19 before Gaga was born.  In the documentary, she plays the song for her grandmother and her father.  Not a dry eye in my tiny abode.

Poignant.

Not much else to say.  I’m done at the university and back to very temporary part time at a couple of places. Same old, same old.

Oldness of the same.

Not feeling great (menopausal nausea probably, which is TMI but this is a blog! An oversharing and rarely updated blog) but will go to my writing group tonight.  I am bringing “Classic Caesar” potato chips.  Won’t eat any myself due to the aforementioned health complaint but what a fun flavour.  Maybe clamato-y?  Who knows.  We had cinnamon bun flavour once and that kind of messes with your salt-loving mind.

Madonna thinks Gaga steals from her – maybe, I could see that.  But I don’t think Madonna could create a song like Joanne but maybe she could.

Seems Gaga has almost 72 million twitter followers.  Seems a lot.  She was just here in Vancouver which I didn’t think too much about at the time.  Now I’m suddenly Gaga-aware.

I have woken up gaga.

The Los Vegas tragedy will be over-analyzed as per usual and the mourning of 59 lives will be lost in the dust of it all I think.

I should try to wake up to more musicians.  It’s kinda fun and poignant at the same time.